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Wednesday, June 29, 2011

I'm an Addict

the state of being enslaved to a habit or practice or to something that is psychologically or physically habit-forming to such an extent that its cessation causes severe trauma.

I'm addicted. 

Just like an Alcoholic.

Just like a smoker.

Just like a junkie on the corner shooting himself up.

I'm addicted to food. That's a very hard thing to admit. It's a struggle. Every day, every hour - sometimes every minute - I have to battle myself because I want that cake that my co-worker brought in, that leftover dinner from last night, that spoon full of peanut butter. I want to eat...

-when I'm happy-

-when I'm sad-

-when I'm angry-

-when I'm bored-

-when I wake up-

-before I go to bed-

I'm not going to lie. It's hard - really hard. For me, losing weight is not JUST about working out and eating the right things - It's about overcoming my addiction.

Have you overcome any addictions? Are you struggling with any now? 


  1. I'm addicted to cigarettes -- and food. I've always struggled with my love/hate relationship with food. I've spent years on an ugly binge/purge cycle and have done/do crazy things to lose weight. And I know that I'll probably never overcome the binging/purging. To me, it's harder to keep under control than cigs because you NEED to eat to live. But you don't need to smoke to live.

  2. Btw, I have never told that to anyone (well, one person knows). Your quest gives me courage to "come out of the binge/purge closet."

  3. I'm a food addict. I've admitted that to myself recently. I think the hardest part of overcoming it is that we have to eat... and that food is such a HUGE part of our society, you can't get away from it. Every celebration is overloaded with food. It's like sending an alcoholic into a Jack Daniel's festival and telling them not to drink... even though it's every where.

    Good for you for admitting the addiction. Keep up the hourly fight!

  4. Kim - Although I've never smoked, I agree with your smoking vs. food theory where is would be easier to quit smoking because you don't need it to live. I'm glad I give you courage! :) Thanks for all the support!

    Jacqui - I know! Food is everywhere! It's crazy, honestly. Thanks for reading!

  5. MJ, I've been addicted to sort of the opposite of you ---- I have to convince myself to eat sometimes. I am aware that I do it (that I dont eat) when I get super stressed or upset... but, when I'm stressed out or feeling like everything's out of control, I start to control my intake...I think the odd reasoning behind it is that everything is out of control but that's the one "thing" I can have within my means of control, you know?

    It's better now than it was in highschool- as I'm at a healthy weight and am aware of my past behaviors so it doesnt control me like it did (sometimes it sneaks in)... but I *have* struggled with food control in my life, so I sort of feel you on the opposite end of the spectrum.

    xoxo, Jodie

  6. Jodie,

    I think sometimes I feel the same way about eating - it is something I can control.

    I'm really glad that you are doing better. :)

    I just tell myself that this is a marathon and not a sprint - every day/hour/minute that I don't give in is a win!

    Thank you (again), for all your support and for reading!

    I hope you have a great day!


  7. Camille YarbroughJune 30, 2011 at 1:13 PM

    Martha you are such an inspiration! You can do it! Your success story will change people's lives! Don't quit! YOU CAN DO IT!!!GO MJ GO!!! :) XXXX

  8. Oh, sweet Camille! Thank you love! I hope you are loving married life! :)